Well we made it to and from the Marriage meeting yesterday. That was the craziest drive I have ever elected to do. It was only snowing a bit here in Royal Oak, but boy did it pick up as we got closer to Lansing. When we hit Williamston we got lucky and rode behind a plow truck all the way to Lansing (about 15 miles). It was a good thing because I couldn't see more than 20 yards in front of me! The way back was a better drive, but still only were able to go about 60 mph. Our usual 1 hr 15 min ride turned into 2.
Our session went well though! I feel like we are at such a great place in our relationship right now. I'm excited to get married and I realize why I want to get married now. It's so much more than just a ring on our finger and having the title. It's unfortunate that the wedding industry and turned it into so much glitz and glam, I think the last thing people think about is the ceremony and what it means to them.
Hate to be a complainer, but i've been interrupted by my phone now 4 times while trying to write this. My job is probably the most stressful thing right now. I'm seriously considering looking for a new job. Okay, maybe not super seriously but the thought has crossed my mind more than once now..... That's a whole other issue. I'll have to write more later. Hopefully the day pics up and shows me the bright side of things. :)
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Today will be a better day
I'm determined to have a better day than yesterday. It seems that I am on an emotional rollercoaster and I can never quite tell when the highs and lows are going to come. Yesterday was a low....
Today my Fiance and I have our 2nd pre-marital meeting in Lansing. The drive is annoying on a weeknight but I really do enjoy the time in the meeting and usually after. We are best friends and I think the meetings just make me remember why we are such great best friends. This week we are discussing all the relationship big ones - Money, God, Sex, Children ect. Some things I already know what he will say, but others i'm sure will suprise me. :)
Today my Fiance and I have our 2nd pre-marital meeting in Lansing. The drive is annoying on a weeknight but I really do enjoy the time in the meeting and usually after. We are best friends and I think the meetings just make me remember why we are such great best friends. This week we are discussing all the relationship big ones - Money, God, Sex, Children ect. Some things I already know what he will say, but others i'm sure will suprise me. :)
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Recently in my life
This month has been full or twists and turmoils for my family. I have a younger brother who at the time was living with his girlfriend in Charlotte, MI. One night she called the police and accused my brother of Domestic Violence. He had apparently bit her and choked her. He was arrested, spent the night in jail and now is facing some very serious charges. While I in no way condone his actions, I am appalled at the events that follow.
In the state of MI, as the accuser you can no long decide "to press charges or not press charges" when you make a domestic violence crime it now is put completely in the hands of the State. There is an automatic PPO or restraining order against the accused until the issue is resolved in court. So my brother had moved home with my mom for about a week and a half. One weekend while I was at home I stumpled upon some text messages that proved my brother had been violating his PPO and seeing and even spending the night with his girlfriend. I can honestly say that I never felt more hatred toward a person in my life. She appalls me. I find it dispicable that you would call the police to have some arrested and then later want them back? Like I said earlier, my brother made some huge mistakes that should not go unpunished, but this girl just complicated everything that much more.
While I can't, nor do I want to erase my brother from my life I have a hard time wanting anything to do with him if it involves his girlfriend. It pains me to think about holidays and of course my upcoming wedding. My brother is supposed to be an usher, but at this point it is put on hold since he is now facing some Jail time. I don't want to invite the girlfriend to my wedding, but I realize that by doing that I risk not having my brother at or in my wedding either. I decided to put on the invite Mr. ____ ____ & Guest vs. her name hoping she might get the message and decide not to come.
I think what is the most difficult for me is the relationship with my mother. I have watched her bail him out financially for the past few weeks and he has never even so much as said thank you. I realize my mom can't get rid of him either, but it seems like my family is no longer angry at either of them. We are supposed to "let go of the anger". I'm sorry, but i'm not ready, and this is a HUGE deal and not some little petty issue. This girl could possibly be in our lives forever and I'm feel like i'm supposed to sit on the side line and keep my mouth shut about how I really feel. There is a story in the bible that I try to remember and hold on to each day. Luke 15: 11-32. The story is about the son who goes off and squanders his father's money, only to return and the father celebrates his return. The older son is furious and does not want to celebrate as he has worked hard his whole life for his father. The father replies that we must be glad and celebrate since the younger brother was lost and now is found. Story of my life, except I don't really think my brother has been "found" yet. I hope he is some day and that some day we can have a better relationship. I harbor so much anger right now and i'm not really sure how to get over it.....
In the state of MI, as the accuser you can no long decide "to press charges or not press charges" when you make a domestic violence crime it now is put completely in the hands of the State. There is an automatic PPO or restraining order against the accused until the issue is resolved in court. So my brother had moved home with my mom for about a week and a half. One weekend while I was at home I stumpled upon some text messages that proved my brother had been violating his PPO and seeing and even spending the night with his girlfriend. I can honestly say that I never felt more hatred toward a person in my life. She appalls me. I find it dispicable that you would call the police to have some arrested and then later want them back? Like I said earlier, my brother made some huge mistakes that should not go unpunished, but this girl just complicated everything that much more.
While I can't, nor do I want to erase my brother from my life I have a hard time wanting anything to do with him if it involves his girlfriend. It pains me to think about holidays and of course my upcoming wedding. My brother is supposed to be an usher, but at this point it is put on hold since he is now facing some Jail time. I don't want to invite the girlfriend to my wedding, but I realize that by doing that I risk not having my brother at or in my wedding either. I decided to put on the invite Mr. ____ ____ & Guest vs. her name hoping she might get the message and decide not to come.
I think what is the most difficult for me is the relationship with my mother. I have watched her bail him out financially for the past few weeks and he has never even so much as said thank you. I realize my mom can't get rid of him either, but it seems like my family is no longer angry at either of them. We are supposed to "let go of the anger". I'm sorry, but i'm not ready, and this is a HUGE deal and not some little petty issue. This girl could possibly be in our lives forever and I'm feel like i'm supposed to sit on the side line and keep my mouth shut about how I really feel. There is a story in the bible that I try to remember and hold on to each day. Luke 15: 11-32. The story is about the son who goes off and squanders his father's money, only to return and the father celebrates his return. The older son is furious and does not want to celebrate as he has worked hard his whole life for his father. The father replies that we must be glad and celebrate since the younger brother was lost and now is found. Story of my life, except I don't really think my brother has been "found" yet. I hope he is some day and that some day we can have a better relationship. I harbor so much anger right now and i'm not really sure how to get over it.....
Giving this a whirl...
I was reminded that I used to have a blog. It was called a LiveJournal. I think I used it when I was in highschool. I tried to get on the site to see if I could log back in to read what I had written but to no avail. I couldn't remember my password or login, and I've changed e-mails so many times since then I couldn't even get it sent to me. Oh well - I'm sure it was pretty funny.
A friend/neighbor recently started a blog. I suddenly felt compelled to write my thoughts as well. My life seems overwhelmingly crazy and stressful right now and I've more than once written things down lately just to get my thoughts down. It's kind of therapuetic. I'm going through a lot of changes and growing up at this stage in my life. Something I thought I was done doing. Life continues to teach me new lessons and I realize that I won't ever be down growing and changing. Sometimes it's just easier than others.
I'll update again soon. I just don't have time at the moment or even know where to begin with what's been going on lately.
A friend/neighbor recently started a blog. I suddenly felt compelled to write my thoughts as well. My life seems overwhelmingly crazy and stressful right now and I've more than once written things down lately just to get my thoughts down. It's kind of therapuetic. I'm going through a lot of changes and growing up at this stage in my life. Something I thought I was done doing. Life continues to teach me new lessons and I realize that I won't ever be down growing and changing. Sometimes it's just easier than others.
I'll update again soon. I just don't have time at the moment or even know where to begin with what's been going on lately.
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