Children?

We've been married for almost 3 months and it's no secret that I want kids! Within the last year I've really wanted kids...bad! Poor Josh on the other hand does not...at least not yet. He says he still feels too young and not ready to take on another living being to care for. I can't argue with that honesty and truthfullness. And it's also selfless in a way - I wouldn't want to bring a child into this world with someone who just wasn't ready yet. I can respect that. I've also been going baby crazy just bit since my neighbor and friend has been pregnant and just delivered her 3rd beautiful baby girl! :) She brought her over tonight and she is so perfect.

So as much as I really do want to have a baby, when I really really think about the reality of it all I'm scared to death! For example, if I found out I was pregnant today, I can only imagine that I would start freaking out thinking about all that i've done lately (drinking, cleaning with "horrible for you" products because they work!) And I suddenly realize how much my life really would change, and Josh's as well. In a weird way Josh and I have become much closer since our wedding. I feel like we're best friends again and content on just hanging out talking all night (which we've done a lot recently) I would miss all of that because a baby would consume us. So as much as I hate to admit it (and I won't tell him...yet) He is right and our entire family will benefit from us waiting just a bit longer. :) I'm pretty sure I can convince him after a year anyways, which means I will still only be 25 and young enough - a year really isn't that long anyways.....

So for now, I get to enjoy my friend's baby once in awhile and enjoy her :)